Fall to Pieces

Going home from school today was esp fun..
all the jokes we'v cracked..
my tummy ached from all the laughters..
my classmates are such fun ppl to be with..
i'm definitely gonna miss this class nxt yr when we'r all splitted:(

reached home n had the sudden urge to jog..
changed to my sports outfit..
jogged 10 rounds around my house block..
pathtic eh? not as if there aint a park nearby my house or smthg..
but i'm just too lazy laa..
should be surprised enough that i even took the time to jog!x)
i oughtta jog more often! and very soon,i'll be able to achieve the dream figure i've been drooling for!
the thought of it makes me go goo goo gaa gaa ... ... ...weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee`

did a lil of soldering just now..
cos the wire of the switch snapped..
played the x'mas melody again..jinglebellsjinglebells`
the melody box was made just in time for x'mas!

Complexed is the best word to describe my mood now..
i think i really cant hold my feelings any longer..
i yearn to put across my thoughts,my feelings..
and laugh the matter off if the worst scenario comes..
BUT..
my heart has a change of plan..
my senses hold me back..
my mind tells me that he is just TOO different for me,
or rather,
i'm just not his type..
and that i should even quit trying..
i wouldnt wanna take a rejecton for an answer..
should i give up without even trying?
is it better off being nonchalent?

this song best describes on how i feel now..
Avril Lavigne's 'Fall To Pieces'
Part of the lyrics goes like this: and i dont wanna fall to pieces,
i just wanna sit and stare at u,
i dont wanna talk about it,
and i dont wanna conversation,
i just wanna cry in front of u,
i dont wanna talk about it,
cause i'm in love with u.
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